Winter in St Lucia (feat. Smallz)

"Daddy was able to get a sheet of parchment paper and write a prayer on it
His personal prayer, thanking God for who I am
I have to walk in my divine destiny"

There's no refuge for the renegades
Spend a winter in St Lucia just to meditate
Be back in the city in time just to levitate and elevate the grind
I keep hearing it's just a matter of time
Losing my mind, woah
Part of me might never come back
Trapped by all o these ghosts I left here in the past
Bond has never been strong between me and my dad
But why'd it had to take a tragedy for us to be a family again
And as I struggle with that answer
While you struggle with your cancer
My eyes fill up when I thought about it but gotta stay composed
Got a session later with Ransom
Can't let em see you out of control
No
They never know that side of your soul
I got a
Lot on the go
Do a lot of it on my own, sadness grown but I'm just glad to be home
That's where the heart is
At least I'm back to where the art is
Out here in the streets, residence of the artists, some of these dudes the hardest
Where niggas starving
Still eat your food regardless
Energy that they harness is something I needed
Twin peaks like two pyramids, our very own Egypt
Third eye open, I can finally see it, couldn't believe it, na
This the renaissance of the real niggas
You gotta build with us to deal with us

There's no refuge for the renegades
Spend a winter in St Lucia just to meditate
Be back in the city in time just to levitate and elevate the grind
I keep hearing it's just a matter of time
Losing my mind, woah
Losing my mind
Losing my mind

"Killa I so jealous there gah
chooops
It so freaking cold here dog
Anyways doggie enjoy it
Bless"

Needed a break from the world
I took time for myself
I got a lot on mind
A little writing should help
Started writing a rhyme
It start writing itself
My homies thought it was tight
I guess the feeling was right
It made sense
Got a new love I don't need all the fake friends now
Tolerance for the bullshit ends now
And if I'm being real
I had people who were more than friends I did wrong
I'm just tryna make amends now
I'm sorry
And if I say it I mean it
I hate when people say it and it ain't got the meaning
If you ain't gonna talk to me direct from the heart
Then why you tryna talk to me from the start
I ain't about it
Could do without it
It don't get harder than this
Sometimes I feel like my heart is just as dark as my lips
Woah
Mom I love you but I'm still growing up
So I gotta see the world cause I'm still blowing up
We making moves so we still pouring up
Man they music ain't a safe route
It's my only way out
Trina build, sure enough

There's no refuge for the renegades
Spend a winter in St Lucia just to meditate
Be back in the city in time just to levitate and elevate the grind
I keep hearing it's just a matter of time
Losing my mind, woah
Losing my mind
Losing my mind

I'm going through it with the love of my life
Constant conflict with this life that I love
You left a paradise to come to the cold to keep me warm
Can't fathom a winter with you gone, you inspired this song
But something wrong now, we ain't the only ones who can feel it
Wake up to make up, we've just learnt to conceal
Can't reveal it, we too deep in this together now
We got too much on the go to not keep it together now
Live better now
Coogi sweater now, woah
That in itself was taking its tole
Couldn't understand it first so couldn't verse
Selfishness and insecurity was making it worse
Plus I'm my own worst enemy at times, gimme a moment, let this energy align
New moons every blue moon
Maybe this shit was too soon
Maybe it's premature or maybe I needed more
Maybe you need to see that yours truly was truly yours
Or
Maybe I'm still truly a boy
But what I do know is everything that I do though
And everything that I do show is everything I needed you for

There's no refuge for the renegades
Spend a winter in St Lucia just to meditate
Be back in the city in time just to levitate and elevate the grind
I keep hearing it's just a matter of time
Losing my mind, woah
Losing my mind
Losing my mind
I don't wanna leave
I don't wanna let this go
But maybe you were right
And maybe I can't breathe
So maybe we should let this go
You used to tell me that
A happy ending depending on where you choose to end it
A happy ending depending on where you choose to end it
A happy ending depending on where you choose to end it
A happy ending depended on you
A happy ending depending on where you choose to end it
A happy ending depending on where you choose to end it
A happy ending depending on where you choose to end it
A happy ending depended on you