Write Please ..

Write Please ..

..And as I lay in my bed, thinking writing all these lyrics..
I recollect my thoughts, feel the pain of all these critics..
Living life where no others have even thought to live it ..
The troubles, the struggles that lives but we can not kill it..
Kill the pain, thoughts of why you left me here all alone?
I had a father who never even cared to pick up a phone..
Give me a call, see how I was doing or even help me at all ..
But instead the 12 years passed, and he still rather see me fall..
You ever had someone say they care & left you in the dark?
But it was never their choice or option to leave you broken heart
Age of 5 no more "I LOVE YOU" or hearing my farts
Rest in Peace momma I love you.. I know it's just the start..
Swimming in sea of life.. most of yo friends is the sharks
Friends since we was kids, but high school tore us apart ..
And Everybody lives…And everybody change
Our thoughts could lead us to grow strong ..or just go insane
Her thoughts ..we won't grow old to say we REMAINED THE SAME
His thoughts ..take her dignity, expect nothing from the pain..
She crying every night, thinking damn I love this boy..
He said I love you too but broke you down like a toy..
Now you expect the worst in every type of male that you see..
He fine, nice smile but can he love you slow & faithfully?
Our mentality the condom won't break, a guarantee ..
Now you holding your son...can you love him tenderly?
Protect him from the world, full of crooks and heart breakers..
So I pray every night above.. God .. you our maker
And if you feel my fuckend soul, then God is your maker
You shed tears but more REAL then all these fuckend fakers..
PIRU Blood Gang displayed my brothers life..
Always there for me, protection.. but was it ever right?
Feeling like he in a gang, it made me strong with excite
Questioned me to join the pain that he shoots at night?
Niggas think they hard cause of them guns ..the fist fights
..I'll tell you what's hard nigga..Just living life..
And as I live through this mind, smoking on some weed
My soul is telling me to please Khalid ..write please..write please ..write please..

Remember like yesterday when I see my little brother…
Looking our mother, promise you I'll always love ya..
Promises are made to be keep, never made to weep
This song is deep so please don't turn off lights, go to sleep
I turn off lights.. lay in the dream, feeling devils creep
The questions of who what why ..and just why me?
Everything's for a purpose and reason, baby girl you'll see
Everything your not ..made everything wiser for you to be
Cause when you fall, you got them legs to get back on your feet
The pace of this track is compared to my heart beat..
Church every Sunday ..am I really a Christian?
I never live through God but I've always payed attention
I've always sat in church learned my lessons so I listen
But right back to fuckend bitches, smoking yo affliction
What's worst ..the shame, the disappointment that made me weak
Grandma was always complaining, grades never hit that peak
But I thought it was okay to lay this girl up in my sheets?
And then I go back to my pen, writing is how I speak
Prayer and the Lord, yeah they really helped me reach
The skys that I scraped every day with this battle
You feel everyone a snake, but you never hear the rattle
One thing I've learned the hard way was to never tattle …
Kicked out of schools, then she sent me to a school with a chapel
Catholic..in a school where everyone is so fragil..
Grandma protected me from hurt, but not from love
Cause sometimes your troubles & pain helps you grow up
Even if you think you ain’t somebody, your somebody
You able to breathe happy, while others just die naughty
Someone who received a calling but died from a shotty
Life is never promised, even when you in heavens lobby
Just cause you made it to the top, doesn’t mean you fall
Walk the walk but you mother fuckers’ crawl
Talk the talk but them prayers never got the call
And I’m just trying to live right, not always in the wrong
Passion I have for this life that I'm trying to reach
Mistakes I lived & learned from that I'm trying to preach
Just cause you can't see the air, don't mean you stop breathing
And just cause you can't see God, doesn't mean you stop believing ..