showering with spiders

Hey father, I've been meaning to call you
I'm sorry I'm not happy often
And the days have felt so heavy
But you told me, "Just come back home when you're ready"
Well, I'm ready
No wiser
I've been showering with spiders
It's silent
I've been so unguarded
Oh, the fire has long extinguished
And you're tired of watching all your fears
Burned out
Oh, what a way to say goodbye
No pain when you're dying on the inside
Gold flames burn brightest in the moonlight
Old names still fade when you hold on
Still wanna die young, so I smoke some
In the city, don't sleep with the lights out
Running too fast, I've been dying to get out now
So dazed, never felt so safe, no
So amazed, never wanna wake up
No pain when you're dying on the inside
Gold flames burn brightest in the moonlight
Old names still fade when you hold on
Still wanna die young, so I smoke some
In the city, don't sleep with the lights out
Running too fast, I've been dying to get out now
So dazed, never felt so safe, no
So amazed, never wanna wake