Turn Back

I've been living this daily
With no peace
No day dreams to save me
Get high cause I want to survive
Wish I could turn back the hands of time

I've been living this daily
With no peace
No day dreams to save me
Get high cause I want to survive
Wish I could turn back the hands of time

Born May, 1985
Ten months later my little bro arrived
Raised in a place where is due to survive
My Mummy shot food to put honey in our hive
I could see the hunger in her eyes
I could see that sut'n wasn't right
She taught me how to wrap and shot my first ticket
She told me watch my back and be smart with it
And I wish that I could take you there
To a place that my brain takes me every day
I could smile but it still won't take the pain away
I could try
But remain in this lonely place
From a child I been raised in this soldier way
Mummy didn't ramp she called us the Kray's
No joke she showed us the ways

I've been living this daily
With no peace
No day dreams to save me
Get high cause I want to survive
Wish I could turn back the hands of time

I've been living this daily
With no peace
No day dreams to save me
Get high cause I want to survive
Wish I could turn back the hands of time

Mummy couldn't cope so she turned to drugs
My auntie Tina gave us hope
She was there for us
I was raised on the roads where its rare to trust
And my hearts been broke now I'm scared to love
And I might seem closed till I open up
Feel the weight of the struggle I been holding up
Been betrayed by a cuddle and a heartless hug
I drink pain from a bottle till my heart feels numb
Cause I came from the bottom of this bottle of rum
Ain't changed from a young'n
I been stuck in the slums
Grey days up in London
Ain't no summer for us
They tryin' to take A
They want my brother in cuffs
And I just came home
This ain't nothing to us
Like the court don't know how our sufferer does
This poor home grown
But mums love was enough
So I want to give her more then she has given to us

I've been living this daily
With no peace
No day dreams to save me
Get high cause I want to survive
Wish I could turn back the hands of time

I've been living this daily
With no peace
No day dreams to save me
Get high cause I want to survive
Wish I could turn back the hands of time

I don't want to feel this
I don't want to see this
I don't want to hurt no more
I don't want to be this
I don't want to feel this
I don't want to see this
Be somebody
Need to get on up, need to get on up now

I've been living this daily
With no peace
No day dreams to save me
Get high cause I want to survive
Wish I could turn back the hands of time

I've been living this daily
With no peace
No day dreams to save me
Get high cause I want to survive
Wish I could turn back the hands of time