Facts Part. 3

So I sit here
23 years old, living in fear
Where do I go from here?
I thought my feelings were sincere but
Nah not here
I hate it here

I would shed a tear but I can't
Not because I can but I really can't
Facing depression, feeling aggression
I should seek a session, maybe learn another lesson
Thankful for my squad
Thankful for my blessings
I feel good
No I don't
Wish I could but the heart just won't
I feel slumped, I feel alone
Open the heart but nobody's home
Nobody claimed the throne
I have somebody but am I sure that she's the one?
Should I give my mind and my heart to somebody that had me since day 1?
My brain sounds cluttered
I shouldn't be thinking of these things but I do
You could hate me, man I'd hate me too
Walking these miles of life in my run down shoes
I'm so insecure cause' again I live in the fear
Got myself into gear
Got myself help and I didn't get a cheer
Vision was so damn clear, losing control of my life and I don't know how to steer
But I put a smile on for my peer

Now this verse two, fuck am I going to do?
Every fucking day I want to disappear
Sold my soul for nothing, damn what a fool
I feel like I'm drowning in my sorrows
Everybody know, feeling like I'm in a public pool
But nobody cares, only vibe to what I share
I could be struggling with addiction, sadly that's a modern rap description
Overthinking, I'm almost at brink
Shit, I'm stuck in a pit
Depression come and hit
Beating me down bit to bit
I feel bad even when I'm lit
I should end my shit and just jump ship
Slit my wrists in an ice cold bath while the vision fades
And that is it