Falling Apart

Right now I'm feeling the lowest I've ever been
I'm stuck inside a cycle man I need this shit to end
But I don't how to escape the place that I'm in
Feels like I'm always losing and I can't catch a win
This girl and my obsession has led me to a depression
This can't happen again man I think I've learned my lesson
And eventually I got so messed up and broken
That I quit going to school
Because of these emotions
Sometimes I go to a different room and just hide
Because I'll have these moments where I breakdown and cry
Sometimes I just sit there and think to myself why?
Why is my life like this? Why should I even try?
And then I feel hopeless like it'll never get better
Like this is just how it is for me and I'll be like this forever
I thought that I could manage and figure this out myself
But I can't and too hard headed to seek any kind of help
I'm hiding in the closet
I don't want to be seen
I'm feeling like a monster
Secrets inside of me
Don't let 'em see me breaking
Don't let 'em see me cry
Don't let 'em see me faking
This pretty little smile
Why do!
I feel!
So damn!
Empty!
When will!
All this!
Come to!
An ending!
Why do!
I feel!
So damn!
Empty!
When will!
All this!
Come to!
An ending!
So because of all my problems I started touching nicotine
My parents looking at me like what the fuck are we witnessing?
It's not like I'm extreme though no I'm not some addicted fiend
Still I'm ashamed and inside it kinda sickens me
And along this road I developed a sleeping problem
'Cause I started taking pills just to numb some of my pain
But now I'm convinced I can't go to sleep without 'em
And how late I'll be up 'till is really just insane
Then I'm all out of pills and I can't get a refill
So I walk to speedway to get myself some zzzquil
Now I'm all the things that I dreaded on becoming
I'm nic using, pill abusing, it's really kinda stunning
I have no motivation and do absolutely nothing
Little things drag me down and I get so fucked inside of my own head
And I get so curled up in my own little messed up world
All this just from a girl
I'm hiding in the closet
I don't want to be seen
I'm feeling like a monster
Secrets inside of me
Don't let 'em see me breaking
Don't let 'em see me cry
Don't let 'em see me faking
This pretty little smile
Why do!
I feel!
So damn!
Empty!
When will!
All this!
Come to!
An ending!
Why do!
I feel!
So damn!
Empty!
When will!
All this!
Come to!
An ending!