Shattered

Sittin on the porch, as I reminisce on life
Thinking bout all of the days I'd like to re-write
Cus I done made a few mistakes, I wish I could sacrifice
Acquitted of the charges, but I deserve to pay the price
And I ain't talkin bout no crime, cus I mean that metaphorically
But when I speak my mind, my thoughts expand, literally
Opening up old wounds cus I gotta face the pain
No more covering the scars, time to rip off the band aid
Someone please call me a doctor cus I need some first aid
I'm bleeding from my soul, I need someone to pray
I'm tryna live my life, but the devil's leading me astray
God, send me your directions cus I swear, I'm on my way
I don't wanna be the person raining on my own parade
So I'm wiping off the tears, stepping outside of the shade
No more faking happiness, I'm done playing charades
No more speaking cautiously, I'm goin off like a grenade
Writer's block done hit me like a muthafuckin train
Every time I try to write, I keep writing in vain
I got too much on my brain, think I'm goin insane
All this pressure to be successful giving me a migraine
I swear my peace of mind, is about to break
My eyes are full of tears, falling into a lake
My heart startin to bleed, suffer and ache
But I've gotta stay strong
I know I got what it take
Cus I know I have a gift and it came from up above
But I've been feelin insecure and let the devil show me love
Now he's got me feelin worse, like I did a bad drug
I'm not tryna overdose
I got too much under the rug
I'm talkin bout potential, but I'm scared to let it show
I'm scared that I'll burn out before I ever get to glow
But if I don't take a risk, the world may never know
It's time to do my thing and just let my words flow
Know I have a gift and it came from up above
But I've been feelin insecure and let the devil show me love
Now he's got me feelin worse, like I did a bad drug
I'm not tryna overdose
I got too much under the rug
I'm talkin bout potential, but I'm scared to let it show
I'm scared that I'll burn out before I ever get to glow
But if I don't take a risk, the world may never know
It's time to do my thing and just let my words flow
But if I don't take a risk, the world may never know
It's time to do my thing and just let my words flow