Who I Am

Just a reminder to myself that Ain’t perfect
Just a reminder to myself that I Am worth it
Just a reminder to myself that I Don’t need em’
Just a reminder to myself that I Can beat em’
Yeah
Welcome to my thoughts
Apologize it’s very cloudy
Dealing with the feeling
Like I feel like I’m nobody
Don’t know where I’m headed
I got no sense of direction
Riding very steadily
Did I forget to mention
I’ve been riding on my own
For a while now
Got many thoughts in my head
It’s getting wild now
Hate to feel this way
Wanna leave but I don’t know-how
Dealing on a daily
And it always follows me around
Yeah
Can’t accept who I am
And Somehow I find that crazy
Asking God for guidance
Then Continue being lazy
Pick up the phone
Where are you going
Don't leave me alone
Let me finish the story
I-
Why don’t I know who I am
I do not
Why don’t I know who I am
I do not
Why don’t I know who I am
I do not
Why don’t I know who I am
I do not
Yeah
My perspective is different
When I’m sad it hits different
Always stay reminiscing
I need help I’m not kidding
You think it’s easy
Think it’s easy being myself
I’m kinda lost Please help
Please check my mental health
In a place that’s deserted
Not so sure that the heard me
Cause they keep commenting
And almost all of it hurts me
I have feelings too
Well at least I think I do
Not knowing what to do
Always falling through
Yeah
And lately
I feel like the only one trying
I been devoured by my fears
And lied to by my silence
If I’m feeling lost
Then have I found regret
Yeah
Show me Where I’m wrong
Show me where I flipped
Maybe then and there is where I’ll start understanding
Meanwhile I’m out the zone not Quite comprehending
I’m sorry I didn’t mean to bother you
I only need a minute
Never mind I’ll keep it quiet
Keep it silent I won’t bother
Why don’t I know who I am
I do not
Why don’t I know who I am
I do not
Why don’t I know who I am
I do not
Why don’t I know who I am
I do not
Why don’t I know who I am
I do not
Why don’t I know who I am
I do not
Why don’t I know who I am
I do not
Why don’t I know who I am
I do not
Maybe things are meant to be this way and that's ok
Been doing it so long can’t expect you to relate
I have been looking for myself for the longest and I still wait
Til’ the day I can wake and say that I’m doing great
Until then I’ll keep writing
Always staying strong
Keep on fighting
Even when things go wrong
Keep my eyes up above
Looking for his mercy
Looking for solutions
That I can not find in humans