Anywhere But Here

[Verse 1]
Well it's 4 am and I'm wide awake
With so much in my head, it's all too much to take
And it's hard to say why I feel this way
But I did today, and I will tomorrow
I never know what sets it off
Or why it comes, or why I fall
Tomorrow, tonight, and the night after
Tomorrow, tonight, and back again
[Chorus]
A fighting chance at second best
To prove myself above the rest
Will I face this all, or stand up tall
Or fall apart again
I'm really trying to get better this year
It's making things feel so insincere
Cause I'd rather be anywhere else today
I'd rather be anywhere but here
[Verse 2]
Nightmares and cold sweats, they happen too much
I'll try to shake it off as i feel disgust
And I'll hesitate to call or text
But I won't think twice to second guess
What do I want? Do I even know?
I can't seem to figure out if this is just for show
Cause I don't doubt that I'll figure it out
But as to when it'll happen is anyone's guess and
[Chorus]
A fighting chance at second best
To prove myself above the rest
Will I face this all, or stand up tall
Or fall apart again
I'm really trying to get better this year
It's making things feel so insincere
Cause I'd rather be anywhere else today
I'd rather be anywhere but here
Anywhere but here
[Spoken Bridge]
Repressing thoughts night after night
They want to talk, I don't let them inside
Am I fine living this way?
I hate that I can't seem to change
A losing battle's easier to fight
If being lost is wrong, I just want to be right
They try to help, but I'm a stubborn fuck
Who they'll give up on just like times before
But I'll say I'm okay
Just fuck it all
(But I'm fine now, it's okay!)
[Chorus]
A fighting chance at second best
To prove myself above the rest
Will I face this all, or stand up tall
Or fall apart again
I'm really trying to get better this year
It's making things feel so insincere
Cause I'd rather be anywhere else today
I'd rather be anywhere but here