I Write 4 Me

I write for me
And anyone who can feel this
I write for me
Something keeps me from smiling
I write for me
This my way of coping
I write for me
I write for me
Therapy session when I turn this mic on
Defending off demons when I turn this mic on
Some can relate to the plays in my poems
I'm a coach tryna figure out this red zone
I been running for a while to the point I strained my calf
Can't swim with negativity to hard to stay on task
Seeing wings from my past but not angel wings
Seahawk demon like Metcalf
Demons built like stranger things
My skull a grenade
Things change a lot change
Pull Benjamins out get pennywise in exchange
I'm a clown I'm insane for opening up bout my pain
Use to keep doors closed but now can't contain
I been crossed sprained ankles fell hard seeing rainbows
Heart n brain is at war I need more than a halo
Dodging hearses with verses churches know I'm below the surface
I'm just tryna find my purpose
I write for me
And anyone who can feel this
I write for me
Something keeps me from smiling
I write for me
This my way of coping
I write for me
I write for me
On replay in a parking garage
Lights on when navigating through this fog
Seat reclined back thoughts of ending this all
Then I see my family n the hurt I could cause
Those thoughts go on pause then return when sun falls
I'm lost in the woods with a pin to dialogue
I can shout my location but still remain lost
My 2 hands help others but in return I get mossed
Bottles full of feelings always sober don't run to henny
This pen out of inky when writing out all my weary
At this point I accepted I'm a be alone when buried
Sense of feeling neglected when discussing these lonely feelings
Red to black is the color in my chest
Hurt got me bulletproof so I disregard a vest
No beats in my pec only feel with intellect
No wonder why I'm stressed wish the pain could forget
I write for me
And anyone who can feel this
I write for me
Something keeps me from smiling
I write for me
This my way of coping
I write for me
I write for me