DEATH./INNER PEACE

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Yeah
Yeah
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Yeah

It's been war for me inside my head
Maybe I'd be better dead
Friends and family losing life
When I wish that God took me instead
Crazy I've been feeling hopeless
Since life for me just began to prosper
I've felt like a damn imposter
Since the death of my grandfather
I hate to be down on myself but I feel like
I'm killing my family name
A lot of pressure when it comes to Thomas
I'm the fourth and it's harder to claim
At odds with the monsters inside closet
Issa whole lot of monsters to tame
Momentum is building can't slow down for nothing can't mourn when I'm closer to fame
But am I wrong for doing what I do
Stone cold and pushing strong
I was out here playing shows while my grandad was barely holding on
Tears fall from my designer shades as the rain fell and they closed the casket
Been a minute since I've felt happy
No more heavens light for me to bask in
It gets to me mentally
Not who I'm meant to be
Busy achieving my dreams
But whats the point of it
I'm walking through bodies
Successful ignoring the screams
At odds with myself
I'm conflicted in heart
And I look in the mirror for blame
I could take my life
And I could say goodbye
Got thoughts of suicide
But I'm so sick of this death

I don't know how many of these days that I got left
My heart is here but barely beats can't feel it in my chest
Fill my life with sex and drugs to handle my distress
Might just take this 22 to help me cope with death
This is death
This is death
This is death
This is death
Might just take my life away
Death
Oh

As time moves farther
Death moves closer
I tried hard but
It's all over
And I always felt like
I ain't truly know her
We lost all composure
Never found our closure
So if you hear this just know that I'm sorry for all of the things that I know that I've done
I'm not solely to blame cuz it takes two to tango
Confrontation is weighing a ton
We were better as friends and we fucked it all up should've known that before we begun
But the friendships unraveled
We tore it to pieces
Chose hate now we've both come undone
Now I'm losing myself
It was you or the music
I couldn't choose one
And I couldn't navigate spaces
It's killing me softly to choose between things that I love
But I had to to go with my writing cuz half the of the time I just felt like I wasn't enough
So my eyes have run dry and my heart has turned cold
My exterior's increasingly tough
Will I make it
Lot to take in
I've grown impatient
Well I mean
Our relations
Not fakin
But our lighthouse don't gleam
Love ain't latent
Heart is vacant
Without a trace and it seems
I am truly unlovable
Taking this double dose
Bottle of vodka to my head until I reach death

I don't know how many of these days that I got left
My heart is here but barely beats can't feel it in my chest
Fill my life with sex and alcohol to cope with stress
Might just take this 45 to help me cope with death
This is death
This is death
This is death
This is death
Might just take my life away
Death
Oh

Now I've had serious thoughts about killing myself and taking it all away
But as you can see and hear right now I've made the choice to stay
I've pondered time and time again bout who I wanna be
But now I've made the choice to journey off to go and find my inner peace
Inner peace
Inner peace
Take a journey off to find my inner peace
Inner peace
Inner peace
Inner peace
Ouu oh
Ouu oh no no
Ouu oh
Ouu oh no no
Yeah oh ouu oh
Oh ouu oh
Oh ouu oh

Yeah yeah
(Inner peace) I lost myself
Lost myself
(Inner Peace) I lost myself
I lost myself
(Inner peace) Lost myself
Lost myself
(Inner peace) I lost myself
Lost myself
(Inner peace) I lost myself
I lost myself
(Inner peace) Lost myself
Lost myself
(Inner peace) I Lost myself
I need some help
(Inner peace)

I gotta find
I gotta find
I gotta find
Inner peace in myself in my mind
Yeah
I was lost and now I'm found
Yeah
Lost and now I'm found
Lost and now I've found
What I'm searching for
What I'm searching for
I've been searching for
Lost and found
In my mind I can't find
Searching for
Inner peace has been lost to me
Inner peace has been lost to me
Inner peace has been lost to me
It is lost and I cannot find
Hard to accept and understand
Accept and understand
Lost to me
I needa find myself again
Can I find it
I needa find myself again
Can I find it
I needa find myself again
Need help to find
Find myself again
What I've lost
I've lost everything on the way
Not my life
But I refuse to die today
I've lost my sanity
Eyes closed
Eyes blind
Can I find
Inner peace