Ego Death

Iv been fumbling my words
Tryin to find a way to say it
So
Every nights a fight for life
A complex
Hexyhydron demon
Taking over everything
Replace it all
Give it all to the fly's
As I lay down in this tent
Watch the light fade
Remember my life
All The things joey
Used to think
Submit to the fly's
Buzzing round my head
As I
Overheat in this tent
Wish I was dead
Now your here too but its
Jus got me thinking
How I
Got you here with me
Deep in this mess
Was it the woods or
Just living plain
I realize
As I grind my teeth
Off this Lsd
My whole life
Right in front of mee
My friends my love
Things I need to see
Everything I care to be
Could be gone
In an instant
Id have nothing
I play into the system
Like a fly
Drawn
To survive
Don't understand
What's wrong and right
I just
Go off to school
Go off to work
Drive my car
Get high
Spend all my money on
Psych's
As the world dies
Inherently evil
I don't think
Just
Ignorant to see
Everything
That where doing
Well
Well you took it all
Took it all away
Now I'm left here
Got nothing left to say
Well you
Broke my trust
You showed me pain
And its all my fault
Iv got nothing else to say
Iv got a tab under my tongue
This is my idea of fun
Call of the void
I should indulge some
Turn on my phone
All I ever see
Is scary headlines
Go off to school
Adding to the problem
I dug this hole
I'm in
No getting out now
Its my fault I know
Still did it anyhow
Now I'm broke
And
Trapped
In this shithole
I'm sorry to myself
My whole life
Right in front of mee
My friends my love
Things I need to see
Everything I care to be
Could be gone
In an instant
Id have nothing
Well
Well you took it all
Took it all away
Now I'm left here
Got nothing left to say
Well you
Broke my trust
You showed me pain
And its all my fault
Iv got nothing else to say
Don't know what to say
Don't know what to do
I got life in
My hands
Falling out the sides
And my friends don't care
They just tell me lies
Hang out without me
Nobody replies
Like
I cant get a job
I cant pay my rent
My only release
Are the drugs
And music
And soon I'll have to forfeit It
Cause
Growing ups
A fucking
Bitch
Who runs this society
The high and mighty
Id like to talk to them
Id like to talk to them
And I'll act like I'm okay
But really
Feeling all this pain
I'm really over it
I'm so so over it
So so over this
So so over this
Just let me sit
With the fly's
Let them eat
Out my eyes
I don't care anymore
I don't care anymore
Just let me be
Let me die
Decay here
With the fly's
I don't care anymore
I don't care anymore
Just let me sit
With the fly's
Let them eat
Out my eyes
I don't care anymore
I don't care anymore
Just let me be
Let me die
Decay here
With the fly's
I don't care anymore
I don't care anymore