NeverEnding

I think I'm ok, my thoughts are clear to process
I can see the bigger picture, I can see that I'm blessed
Ready for my testimony, I think I passed my test
Confident to move on, I can now be my best
Awww man! Darkness again?! Surrounded by envy, hatred, and sin
The fire within, can't even stack up my wins, stuck in this cycle again
How does it end? Yo I just pick up the pen, stay locked and loaded ready for action
Messing with me just to get a reaction, leeching on me to feed off my traction
I'm moving forward, I'm really trying, but something keeps pulling me back
Then I go back, making opinions a fact, causing my mind to go black
Depression attacks, that's how it feels, yeah, it just ruined my day
I can't even progress, I know I'm not ok
This is just so never ending
This vicious cycle that I'm stuck in makes me wanna end it
Going in circles tryna figure out what is this I'm feeling
Trapped here in darkness & something here keeps on pushing, it keeps on pushing me
This time I'm gon push back, back up out my mental space
This time I'm gon get back, up and finish this race
This time I'm gon push back, back up out my mental space
This time I'm gon get back, up and finish this race
This time I'm gon push back
I'm dusting it off, I'm getting back up, continue my passion, not giving up
Remember a time when I was just stuck, wanted to die I was out of my luck
Telling me I'm not as good as I'll ever be, cycles of failures is all that I'll ever see
Damaging history, draining me mentally
Look in the mirror & see my ability
Young & I'm black, keep moving forward there's no turning back
So when it attacks, I'm bringing up facts, I'm more than a conqueror so if you push me, I'm pushing you back
Depression get back! You said I wouldn't see 30
Now it's year 31 with a wife & three kids & I live to see that I'm still worthy
But man! Darkness again! This cycle again, it never left
Walk through alleys & valleys, the shadows surround me, all in my ear, they whispering death
Doing my best, pumping my chest, was chosen before I was born
Enemy told me I'll die in this weather, & I responded I am the storm
This is just so never ending
This vicious cycle that I'm stuck in makes me wanna end it
Going in circles tryna figure out what is this I'm feeling
Trapped here in darkness & something here keeps on pushing, it keeps on pushing me
This time I'm gon push back, back up out my mental space
This time I'm gon get back, up and finish this race
This time I'm gon push back, back up out my mental space
This time I'm gon get back, up and finish this race
This time I'm gon push back