Monologue of the Past and Present

[Verse One]
Don't know when I will die
Can't rely on anything
Why am I so anxious lately?
I don't know a reason
I don't know a damn thing
But I know we see a pattern everytime

[Chorus]

As we sit and smile at the things we know and love
As we stand and frown at the things we left on the ground
As we look into the past we shed a tear
As we look into the future we freeze in fear

[Verse Two]

I don't know what to explain
For this feeling of anxiety
I've benn having for weeks
Don't know why this happened to me
Randomly; Can't you see
I just want to be happy?
And I usually am happy
But I don't show it
And people remember that

[Chorus]

As we sit and smile at the things we know and love
As we stand and frown at the things we left on the ground
As we look into the past we shed a tear
As we look into the future we just freeze in fear

[Refrain]
Can you tell
Not to yell
Out in here
Who's to hear
You complaining?
No one's here but me
Oh, no one's here but me

Can you tell
Not to yell
Out in here
Who's to hear
You complaining?
No one's here but me
Oh, no one's here but me

[Verse Three]
I don't want to die so young
I don't want to die so young
I don't want to
I don't want to
I don't want to
I don't want to

I don't want to die so young
I don't want to die so young
I don't want to
I don't want to

Oh, and I won't have a choice
If I am to die
You know the hotel lights will flicker off tonight
And when it happens, the hotel lights will flicker off tonight
When I sleep, when I sleep
The hotel lights don't flicker off in the way you think
They just go idle and blink
Not the way that you think
Those lights, they only blink

Oh, I'm stuck in a ramble
Oh, I'm stuck in a ramble
Oh, doubt this monologue goes on forever

I was never like this
I dont, I don't think
No, I was like this before, they would say
I just worry so much about everyone, including me
I just worry more about everyone else

The funny thing about improvisation is that eventually in your mind, you think about things that are really important in your life. For your mind, you'll release them out into a song. You never really needed to know. But it's okay, you would say. "Is it okay?" you would say. If it wasn't okay, you would cut this out

[Chorus]

As we sit and smile at the things we know and love
As we stand and frown at the things we left on the ground
As we look into the past we shed a single tear
As we look into the future we just freeze in fear

[Verse Four]

And they ask me "can we wipe this slate clean?"
But I don't want anything to deal with them
I have more messages elaborate this this
And then I look them in the eyes
To not complain
They put them up to not complain
Look me in the eyes

[Refrain]
Can you tell
Not to yell
Out in here
Can you tell
Not to yell
Out in here
Who's to hear
You complaining
And care at all?

[Verse Five]
This isn't pointless
This isn't useless
This isn't pointless
This isn't useless at all

This can help you so much
This can help you so much
This can help you so much
This can help you so much

Things happen in our lives to change our minds
Things happen in our lives to change our minds
And it will happen over and over and over again
And it will happen over and over and over again

Don't ever be discouraged, I say
Don't ever be discouraged, I say
Don't ever run away
Don't ever run away

Oh no, there's so much more to live for
Oh no, there's so much more to live for
Oh no, there's so much more to live for
Oh no, there's so much more to live for

[Refrain]
Oh, can you tell
Not to yell
Out in here?
You are fine

[Chorus]

As we sit and smile at the things we know and love
As we stand and frown at the things we left on the ground
As we look into the past we shed a single tear
As we look into the future we just freeze in fear