Thinking, Pt. 1

[Verse]
She said she fell for the same propaganda that she is selling all of her friends
These dead ends, putting her best foot forwards
Hoping even the damned can walk on water
'Cause these weekends are for creating memories and enemies that create a reason to repent
She said, "Love who you are, before you become someone else
And put purpose to these scars, before you remember how they felt
And, darling, hold your home, and hold her close until the sun comes up
Then we can see if the white in our eyes are just a disguise for the weaknesses we find
When we fall in love
And when you can't find yourself, learn to love from afar
Never believe in what you once held
'Cause we can build, but only if we first let the world destroy
A simple move to find use of the times we enjoy,"
She said, "Don't live to avoid what you fear, but live to pursue what you love,"
And I've been loving the way we make promises
But I don't feel alive at all
(phone ringing)
I'm just a wall, begging for a wrecking ball
Begging for a reason to love
(phone keeps ringing)
"Hey, why'd we stop?"
[Speaking]
I need to take this
Hold on one sec, sorry, I just need to go outside, I'm in the middle of recording
(sighs)
Yeah, I agree
There's just certain things we can't change, I guess
And I'm at a point where I'm not going to, i guess, put myself out there to make a change
Uh, I c-, no, I want things to be good, and I want everyone to be happy
But i can't throw myself away in the pro-, I, I have to honor my self-esteem, you know?
Now I'm just... yeah, I just... uh... I-, can we talk later? I don't wanna take this energy into the, you know, studio, I guess
Uh, it's going fine, I just want to, get it out of the way
Bye