Attention Seeker
It's no wonder you don't miss me
Looking back on all the shit I pulled at sixteen
I was so broken, didn't let you try to fix me
I don't think I ever let you know the real me
Think back on everything i made up
I just realized I don't know what I was afraid of
I had to lie, had to piece myself together
To try and hide the cracks and all my broken feathers
I know I can't make you see
How much better I'm tryna be
I wish I could just be
Your only one (just like you thought I was)
And I know I kinda sound like a jerk
Talking 'bout myself instead of the ones I've hurt
I speak my truth with every one of my words
Every time I go and lie it just makes it worse, I'm just a
Attention seeker
Years of just pretending done left me weaker
I'm just an attention seeker
I pushed her away and now I can't reach her
Attention seeker
I tried to be strong and I just got weaker
I'm just an attention seeker
No love for myself and now I ain't a believer
I don't even want you to know
I been lying, tryna hide the pain
I'm putting on a hell of a show
I'm still tryna make sure that no one knows I
Still got my vices, can't see past my eyelids
I'll drown in this bottle, I don't care what the price is
So when I'm sleeping I won't care how I am still like this
Act like I ain't sad about the way that my life is
I guess I should fess up
I'm still tryna pretend like I ain't messed up
I try but I can't keep my head up
I'm standing on the edge with a loaded gun
And when I am six feet under the earth
Will you remember me for me or the ones I've hurt
I speak my truth with every one of my words
Every second I'm alive it just makes things worse, I'm just a
Attention seeker
Years of just pretending done left me weaker
I'm just an attention seeker
I pushed her away and now I can't reach her
Attention seeker
I tried to be strong and I just got weaker
I'm just an attention seeker
No love for myself and now I ain't a believer
You should know that by the time that I'm gone
That I gave you everything until I couldn't hold on
I gotta swallow my pride and just let you move along
'Cause I couldn't see it then but now I know I was wrong
And this is what I bring myself, I reap what I've sown
I push everyone away and then I end up alone
I was a vile human being and I gotta atone
You were right to leave, this empty house is not a home
Attention seeker
Years of just pretending done left me weaker
I'm just an attention seeker
I pushed her away and now I can't reach her
Attention seeker
I tried to be strong and I just got weaker
I'm just an attention seeker
No love for myself and now I ain't a believer
