Used To

[Verse 1: GrewSum]
I've been doing this a long time, so it's hard to imagine my life without it
Even though I went through a couple periods where I tried to quit, give up, even tried announcing it
But the music wouldn't let me go
My mind would erect these flows, too natural
Tried dousing the flame, the light just grows by itself to the point that there might be hope
I like these notes and the melodies
That my mind keeps telling me
Eventually I had to lay 'еm down again to get 'em out my head
'Causе I was about to get myself back in a rut like I had never seen
The beat hit my brain
It was sending me back to the days when I felt like a better me
I was feeling like a piece of shit until I put the pencil to the paper and I knew I found the remedy
Immediately hit a brick wall
People don't forget the times that you were acting like a bitch dawg
Looking at me thinking "Get lost"
'Cause they don't know about my problems, they just notice how I flip-flop
And I get it man, I really do
In hindsight it was ridiculous the way that I was switching moods
But now I know that I'm a different dude
I needed help, I had to face it, that was just the plain and simple truth
So I got it and I noticed that the problem is that people just assume that you never will improve
So when you do it the truth is your movements do little to prove that the truth is the truth

[Pre-Chorus: GrewSum]
You can't really do too much that can change how they view you, naw
It's gonna take some getting used to
Hearing people say that they don't love me like they used to, huh

[Chorus: GrewSum]
Grew, I used to really love yo shit
Grew, I used to roll around and bump yo shit
But I lost all hope when you damn near quit
Three times, in my eyes it didn't make no sense
I know, I hope that you'll give me this chance to redeem myself
'Cause I've grown, and I'll show everybody if you just give me the time
Grew, I used to really love yo shit
Grew, I used to roll around and bump yo shit
But I lost all hope when you damn near quit
Three times, in my eyes it didn't make no sense
I know, I hope that you'll give me this chance to redeem myself
'Cause I've grown, and I'll show everybody if you just give me the time

[Verse 2: GrewSum]
If you would just allow me to show you the ways that I changed and I ain't like the old Grew
I finally broke through the unstable phases, came face-to-face with the cold truth
I was ashamed of being that way
Felt insane, became what I hated the most too
Pushed away everybody, feeling jaded
I hated everyone, even people I was close to
Knowing that I wasn't normal would eat at me
Seemingly I couldn't do anything to fix it
It just got worse day-by-day
I can say I agree that I seemed like a dipshit
One minute I would be just fine
It wouldn't take much and my demeanor would switch quick
Then I'd be locked in a long-lasting bout of depression, guessing it would be best to just quit
Took my whole life falling apart
My heart getting broke wide open to notice the real me
No longer was I allowed to hide inside of my foolish pride and not feel things
There's consequences, I would have to pay the price for my choices, it got expensive
My [constant endless?], need to always feel right
Lost me friendships, I would not suggest it
I got upset with everyone at some point over nothing
I wish I could go back and undo
The last ten years of overreactions
But you can't no matter how bad you want to

[Pre-Chorus: GrewSum]
You can't really do too much that can change how they view you, naw
It's gonna take some getting used to
Hearing people say that they don't love me like they used to, huh

[Chorus: GrewSum]
Grew, I used to really love yo shit
Grew, I used to roll around and bump yo shit
But I lost all hope when you damn near quit
Three times, in my eyes it didn't make no sense
I know, I hope that you'll give me this chance to redeem myself
'Cause I've grown, and I'll show everybody if you just give me the time
Grew, I used to really love yo shit
Grew, I used to roll around and bump yo shit
But I lost all hope when you damn near quit
Three times, in my eyes it didn't make no sense
I know, I hope that you'll give me this chance to redeem myself
'Cause I've grown, and I'll show everybody if you just give me the time