Dreamers

[Chorus: GrewSum]
I'm getting kind of old for this shit (shit, shit)
But I still can't get over this shit, no, no
I need to be alone for a bit
To think about this hole that I'm in, so low
Maybe I should give it up cause I'm sick of feeling stuck
All they want is money and I just don't get enough
The bills are piling up and they just don't give a fuck
This ain't a world that's built for dreamers
No

[Verse 1: GrewSum]
I was so positive that I could make it work
That was two thousand and five, I was creative and at first
I was sure I was amazing, I was out to get my worth
In retrospect I could've made it, but I only made it worse
Now it's twenty twenty-two, I just struggle now and lose
At this point I'm almost over it, what the fuck should I do?
Every minute my brain is in it, creating, making moves
So it's hard to bе dedicated to anything elsе, it's true
It's almost like a disease
All the light that I need is in this music
If I lose it, what's my life gonna be?
The thought of it is just awful, I wanna fight to achieve
But every time I fail, it hurts, and it drops me right to my knees
Gave up everything that I had to be a dad and don't regret it
But was sure that I was just leaving it somewhere to go get it
Now he's older and I'm ready to show him my golden methods
But he also sees I'm broken, that show is a broken record

[Chorus: GrewSum]
I'm getting kind of old for this shit (shit, shit)
But I still can't get over this shit, no, no
I need to be alone for a bit
To think about this hole that I'm in, so low
Maybe I should give it up cause I'm sick of feeling stuck
All they want is money and I just don't get enough
The bills are piling up and they just don't give a fuck
This ain't a world that's built for dreamers
No

[Verse 2: GrewSum]
I'm pushing forty, it's crazy how quick it happened
In my head I'm nineteen still and I just discovered rapping
Those Tech N9ne multiple syllables had me captured
Kicking similar patterns, freestyles I was crafting
Doomsday Productions had me hooked with all the darkness
And the Dark Carnival was the family I always wanted
Sly Boogy was snapping, Crooked I was the hardest
And Mike Shinoda was crazy, masterfully mixing genres
Brotha Lynch Hung was ripping guts to bring them home for supper (supper, supper)
K.M.K. was getting blazed, it's like we know each other (other)
And I would just get lost within it all and fade away (away)
Dreaming I could help to grow the road that they had paved (paved)
But the minute I got close I had to go and say (say)
A bunch of shit I didn't know would blow up in my face (in my face)
All these years later I swear I'm my biggest hater
Cause I ruined every chance I ever had to become greater

[Chorus: GrewSum]
I'm getting kind of old for this shit (shit, shit)
But I still can't get over this shit, no, no
I need to be alone for a bit
To think about this hole that I'm in, so low
Maybe I should give it up cause I'm sick of feeling stuck
All they want is money and I just don't get enough
The bills are piling up and they just don't give a fuck
This ain't a world that's built for dreamers
No