A Milion Miles

[Verse 1: GrewSum]
Life changes sometimes it's too much
It's amazing what the time did to us
I look around not knowing who to trust
Knowing that I didn't but feelin' like I screwed up
Life's harder, suffered a heavy hit from my karma that left a crack in my armor
There was a point when I could never take my eyes off her
Now I wonder who she's fuckin' like I might stalk her
Then I talk myself down from that
I'm better, never, even bein' around in fact
Write it down in a track, pop downers and drink
Lay down and relax just surrounded by rap
Music's the only thing that keeps me from losing it
Abusing my body with drugs, plus the booze isn't helpin'
Move to a new city to lose it in
Moved away so she couldn't see what she could do to him

[Chorus: GrewSum]
I never thought it'd end up like this, oh no
I feel a million miles away
I'm so distant but that's just the way that it goes
Don't tell me it'll be ok
I'm not gonna act normal because I know
That I'm not really willing to change
I'd rather just explain the way my life goes
And tell you why I am this way

[Verse 2: GrewSum]
Happy New Years, oh shit another one
But I gotta tough it out because I love my son
The easy move would be to fucking run
But if I end up runnin' to the substances I'll just end up a drunkin' bum
Rap needs me, and so does Shane
So I just tuck it away, and I won't complain
This happy face hides a tortured brain
But there's a lot of people like me who are sorta the same
No pity parties for me, we really party
I'm missin' Carlie but honestly we were really hardly happy acting like it's promising please
Time to accept it, fell apart and just go hard on these beats
It's gettin' harder to sleep
Cause I don't know another way to make a better life
My head is right where it needs to be with this pen I write
Focus on the future so much and tryin' to get it right
That when I cut the lights I can't even sleep in my bed at night

[Chorus: GrewSum]
I never thought it'd end up like this, oh no
I feel a million miles away
I'm so distant but that's just the way that it goes
Don't tell me it'll be ok
I'm not gonna act normal because I know
That I'm not really willing to change
I'd rather just explain the way my life goes
And tell you why I am this way

[Verse 3: GrewSum]
I've become a different person entirely
Tryin' to speak on my life and how it inspired me
If I was composed there's no tellin' where I would be
I'd probably be better off lost in sodomy
I've always spoke my mind, I've always been honest
Told people the truth when they didn't really want it
It's funny how being real made me become a target
To faker artist who hate me 'cause I made a market
Being weird, being ugly, and being mean
Being harsh, being drugged up, and speakin' clean
Making songs about horror parties and chiefing green
They take offense because I'm comfortable with being me
And they gotta fake it to make it
Paying up with painting on makeup and contacts
And on tracks they always claim they creative
When they're just imitating the greats that have made it work
Fuck fakin' it to make it, I'ma stay a jerk

[Chorus: GrewSum]
I never thought it'd end up like this, oh no
I feel a million miles away
I'm so distant but that's just the way that it goes
Don't tell me it'll be ok
I'm not gonna act normal because I know
That I'm not really willing to change
I'd rather just explain the way my life goes
And tell you why I am this way