Frowning Clowns

[Verse]

They say that clowns are all sad inside
I would know I'm Pagliacci with the pen hiding all my pride
Every single day has become the same to me
It's all fifty shades of grey and that's the irony cause
All my red balloons were painted into black ones
Every hateful word caused another cut on my tongue
Now there's blood filling up my mouth
Watch out for the flood, every single one of us is gonna drown
My walls are filling up with these creepy frowns
Tieing me down
They want to start another meltdown
But I'll freeze up and just pour more into the cup
To try and calm down, yo
I don't wanna die now
I'd rather live with my sadness than to hit zero on the countdown
If I call that number that ends in the double five
I hope they tell me to stay alive, and not to cry
Because every little thing
Every little thing is gonna be alright
I put on the face paint so much that I forgot to take it off
Now I'm walking through these streets like another weary mime
With my body on Earth but my mind is far off
It's the Sad Clown Paradox
The hands keep spinning on every single clock
Time isn't real and neither is the sunshine
I'd rather be complacent with my illness
Than to ever try and feel fine
I don't believe in getting better but distracting yourself so much
That you can weather weather and feel better
Release all the tension so you can destroy the tether
I failed the Rorschach test all I saw were pieces
The angels come every now and then but only when I'm dreaming
And they whisper to me
"Don't worry my son
All these bad things
You know they happen for a reason" but I couldn't say anything
I strained my vocal cords from all the praying
That I did by screaming, look
I told God if he ever comes down
Don't take me with him I'm comfortable with the demons
Chaos runs through my mind every single day
He meets with my rage and tells him to come out and play
Every single day they do it and it fucks up my mental space
Sometimes I feel like I'm gonna drown
Heavy is the Head that bears the crown
I feel the cracks that I'm gonna break down
Look into my eyes
Watch the tears of a crying clown