Eclipse

[Verse]

Put your glasses on when you look into my eyes
If you stare too deep, find the void that's in my mind
It's an eclipse everyday if the sun shines
Darken all the land there's no way to tell the time but
When I'm with you time really doesn't matter
It could be a bright day or a silent night it won't change a thing
Because I'm blinded by the light
And you might've stabbed me in the back
There's no way I won't fight
Acting like you love me why'd you do me like that
Sending all these heart eyes yet you still can't take it back
Like all the lies that you whispered in my ear that
We could be together going in to the new year
I don't do things out of love I do it for love
But you can't call me selfish I'm the definition of a dove
All I brought was peace when all you brought was war
But I fell hard I couldn't see through your Trojan Horse
I guess I was a blessing like you always said but
What good's a blessing if you always feel dead
I can't stop to smell the roses I'm too scared of the thorns
Cut myself too many times and now I'm growing horns and
You can smell the blood like a shark in the water
You can take my heart and brain just think of me like as a rotter
If it's easier, just pretend that you hate me
I already do, better than to question why you don't love me
Just use me, abuse me, do what you want with me
I could be your pet, you could cook my pound of flesh
Dominatrix in the bed I wish you never left, but
You're just a part of the tsukuyomi in my head
Idealized to a point of deity
I wanted you so bad, not just a valleity
Don't question the validity of my ardor
I was so close to taking you to the harbor
Y si ya se acabó
No lo ocultes, dímelo
No lo hagas peor
Cause I can't take no more of the tricks, of the kicks to my ribs
Of your lips and oh how I just wanna kiss under the next eclipse
Every star in the sky are just eyes that are staring down upon us
Waiting to arise I only hope that they take me in real nicely
Tell me it'll be okay real wisely
But that's another fantasy that's in my mental
Cause I know they won't be gentle, they'll be very judgmental but
I can pray that they show some empathy
'Long as they forgive me, of all my zealotry
Every word was a dagger that pierced my soul
I read the text a hundred times looking for your soul
After that day everything changed
Started looking for the signs to try and find my stein's gate
Everywhere I go I see another glitch in the matrix
Sometimes I think I belong on a crucifix
Feel the stigmata with the spear that's in my ribs
Remove me of my filth and you can feed it to the pigs
Maybe then, when I'm clean, I could be yours
Take you on a flight, we could go to the Azores, or
Maybe I should say Azores, eu sei que ce fala portugues, and
We'll switch it back with ease
I'm getting tired of the begging all the praying that I've done
I'm not asking for a lot of things just one
For you to be mine and be mine forever
Soul ties remember we're connected by a tether, least
That's what I assumed when everything was fine
I think this time the bull was killed by the gemini
Eaten by the crabs there's no balance in this life of mine
Tip the scales over maybe this was all just by design
If this was manufactured from the start I got a couple questions
Why'd you leave me on this lone highway with no direction
Cause I can't seem to find my way out of here
Feels like forever but it's only really been a year
A year of pain a year of dreams a year of love
A year of lies and I've felt the whole spectrum trying to be that guy
I've remodeled myself a thousand times and
Everyone was still rejected in this world line
Maybe in another I'm not a victim
A victim of my complexes I can finally reach my apex and let go
Fall into the void or I'll fall into your heart which one I'll never know