Without You

Dear diary
I'm not crying anymore, which is great
You know, I've been trying to write something different
I am kinda sick of sad songs and all that shit
I think I'm gonna try to write something a little bit more
Angry
My best friend said she saw you on the bus today
You were with that curly-haired friend of yours
It's been a while, I barely even noticed that it's May
I spent my time wondering and being outdoors
'Cause sometimes my head's a little loud
I left myself and got into the crowd
I left myself between those pretty places
When all I did was look for you in all the faces
But every day's a little easier babe
I know it is for you, for you
Still, sometimes I can't help but wonder If I'm on your mind too
And I can walk again on my own
There's nothing I can't do
Because now the truth hurts less than how it used to do
Without you
Without you
I pretended I didn't mind when they asked me about you
And I still have that letter that I never sent
Does your mom know about me and what we used to do?
I wonder if your sister asks about me now and then
I hate that I don't hate you
Even though you break me like you do
Now I just can't remember
The sound of your laugh at the park
And little pieces of us start to fade, wish I knew
That loving you would break my heart in two
But every day's a little easier babe
I know it is for you, for you
Still, sometimes I can't help but wonder If I'm on your mind too
And I can walk again on my own
There's nothing I can't do
Because now the truth hurts less than how it used to do
Without you
Without you
I ignored the signs
I ignored the lies
I'd hide in my heart
I ignored the way you said I love you
Still couldn't stop you from leaving
And I can't wait for you babe
Time moved on, I stopped grieving
For a person who never fought for me from the start
For a person who never worried I'd break apart
How I'm feeling?
Well I don't really know how to answer to that
Uh I don't know, I'm kind of in this phase where
I realized that I'm actually really glad to be alone
And not with him