Not Your Fault

I don't have any friends
I wanna say I love you but it's hard to pretend
I wanna let it go but it's hard to forget
The way you made me feel when we started again
Tryna be the man that you wanted to get
Couldn't understand I was already it
Couldn't help your sad but i wanted to and
I forgot myself
And i'd be lying if i said i never loved you
You'd be fine if i never said to come thru
You were mine and i went ahead and lost you
And it's all my fault
I was trying but i never ever come to
Your side when u needed me to love you
I'm sad we were always gonna fall thru
And it's not because of you

Everything i do
reminds me of you
Spend too long together
Tryna find me to
And i don't wanna say that I'm likely too
But i just fade away into the night thinking that
I'm just gonna make u sadder
When i can't figure out what matters
I can't figure out what happened
But I can't give u ring like saturn
I just wanna make you hate me
Like everybody seems to do
I just hate the way I'm changing
And it's not because of you

I don't even bleed, I want to