Lie

I’ll look like a sucker but fuck it
Let’s do this
I still don’t know why you did it
But it was a life lesson
So I guess life really is a bitch

[Verse 1]
Every body’s trynna make me hate myself
Since I knew myself, reflecting themselves, maybe
Didn’t know I could do anything, felt useless
Until I found the pen and paper, felt cool then
Years went by, I was up and down
Mentally unstable, sometimes happy thoughts, sometimes suicide
Bad memories’ comin’ but couldn’t let thеm go
So the pen wanted to burst and I lеt it flood
Then I saw you, felt like I should have her
But I’m a pussy ass shy boy, couldn’t tell you so
But I gathered all my courage, couldn’t let this blow
I let you know and you said no, and the next day yes
I couldn’t handle it, am I really likable?
Maybe I am, maybe I’m not a piece of shit after all
Kinda started feelin’ myself, but it was strange
Somethin’ different was happening but I couldn’t feel the change
I had doubts that I shared, but you made me sure
You thought you’re doin’ enough but I wanted more
I was fallin’ more every day and you let me go
I wish you stopped me, but you had a different goal
How you could act like this, it was kinda impressive
It looked so real, sometimes I reminisce it
I thought I’m doin’ something wrong, I was feelin’ pressure
I dreadfully asked do you love me? And you said yes, but

[Chorus]
It was all a lie, it was all a lie, it was all a lie
It was all a lie, it was all a lie, it was all a lie
It was all a lie, it was all a lie, it was all a lie
It was all a lie, it was all a lie, it was all a lie

[Verse 2]
I was patient, but felt like something’s off
The patience ran out and I asked you what the fuck is wrong
You told me it was all a lie, it was all a show
To see how much you can hurt me, and you can hurt me more
I went down the dark hole again, worse than before
I went hard in rhymin’ and flow
Maybe if you knew what I been through
You wouldn’t do what you did, but fuck it and fuck you, uh
You turn love into hate, that’s what you do
I turn all my negatives to positives in the booth
You think you fooled me but you the one lookin’ like a fool
My conscience is clear, I have nothin’ to prove
Maybe I am the normal person after all here
You just cemented in my brain all my constant fears
Fear of not being deserving of any good thing
I gotta start over the confidence I was building
But it’s no problem, ‘Cause it ain’t tied to a bitch
This time I build brick by brick, step by step
I should walk the walk again, there’s no easy tricks
I should talk the talk again, until it exists
Haters deal with self-hate, I just needed proof
I kinda forgive you ‘cause you were feeling hopeless too
I came out a better person but not sure about you
Like everybody else you wanted me to feel worthless too

But it’s a lie, it’s a lie, it’s a lie
‘Cause I’m a king bitch