Up to you

[verse 1:]
I usually just run from what I feel
But it never felt this real
We started off so strong
But I guess we were wrong
Why am I afraid of commitment?
I gave my all, the limit
I gave my heart for you to hold
It once was warm but now made cold
Only if you could search my soul
And just for once listen to this story being told
We never talked for days on end
And the days we see each other
You don't act like my friend
Never mind being my lover
If you don't want to be with me
Baby, just tell me and let me be
(This here is emotional torture)
If you never love me, just end it
Don't hurt me anymore, say it's it

[hook:]
I meant when I said I loved you
I honestly thought you did too
What happened to the spark
These flames grew taller, they had lit my past
But right now I just feel alone in the dark

[verse 2:]
Every night I lay awake
Thinking of what steps we did take
Going over my every move
Wondering of what I did wrong, what can I ever improve
Tears stream down my face
For my every move I feel critiqued
I still love you, baby don't get me wrong
But this feeling makes me weak, and no longer strong
I'm down on my knees begging, pleading
My heart can't take much more bleeding
Let me know how you feel
Even if your love for me isn't real
I don't understand
One day you'll stand tall and hold my hand
But next, I'm left with the feeling of blue
Without a heads up or even a clue
(I feel like I'm on an emotional roller coaster)
With all these ups, and downs
And all these rounds

[hook:]
I love you is just three words
But I can't describe the meaning they hold
You opened my eyes
And showed me a new life

[bridge:]
Even though I am young, I started questioning my being
But baby, when I met you, I once again started believing
You have helped me more than you know
And one day that story will be told

[verse 3:]
I'm not a girl who wants material things
No flowers or fancy rings (fancy rings)
Baby, I'm a giver, not a taker
Just like I am a listener, not a talker
There are things I wish for
Just listen if you wanna know more
I wanna be the person you confide in
The person who wipes your tears and makes a grin
I want to be the one you call
When you can't stand tall
I wanna be there for you no matter what happens (no matters)
For you boy, I'm just around the bend
I maybe can't give advice
But I can promise you I will try to concise
But baby I want you to be happy
Especially with me (be happy with me)

[outro:]
I'm sorry if I made you upset
I just had to get it off my chest
Now you know how I feel
You holding the cards, and it's time to deal
Every word I say is true, yeah
But the rest is up to you now