The Hollow Mountain

I am not made of matter
I am not made of light
I carry so much weight in
A void of soulless blight

Search the woods but
Find no fire
Disappear in
To the spire

I'll walk into the water
I’ll plunge into its depths
A freezing affirmation
A pale and cold shipwreck

Drag the lake but
Find no body
Disappear in
To the theory
Thick black oil
Flows so freely
I will soon be
Gone completely
Gone

I am barren
I am ghost
I am see-through
I am stained

Steep the climb
Numb the limbs
In the stillness
I give in

How can I protect myself?
How can I permit myself?
How do I convince myself?
How can I be someone else?

Crack the bones
In my face
Rearrange

How can I protect myself?
How can I permit myself?
How do I convince myself?
How can I be someone else?

Out in the ether I try to let go
Burning in silence I lay in the snow
Sick from the heartache of trying so long
Secret imposter, how can I belong?

Will I ever reach the peak?
Scale the summit, see the other side?
I am hollow, I am weak
I have nowhere left to hide