To Feel Something, Anything at All

Defendant: Before you condemn me
Your Honor, you must understand
That since I was young
I was different from the others

I’ve never felt real human connection
I don’t think I ever could
People are just tools to me
I use them to get what I want

And what I wanted
Was to feel something
Your pain and disgust
Come so naturally to you
I hide my true self
Just to survive
I just wanted to feel something
Anything at all

The Gallery: You took a life, the ultimate sin
And now you’ll pay the price

Defendant: I can’t get my thrills from slasher flicks
Nor from joyrides or drugs
When I watched the light leave her eyes
It was like setting her soul free

And I felt something
And I’d do it again
I held life and death in my hands

So sentence me, if you must
If it means I’m done living this lie

The Gallery: No one to say goodbye
No friends or family
Alone you lived
Alone you die
We’d wish you to spend
The rest of your life in regret
But you can’t even feel it
You’re barely human

She was a toy to you
Discarded once broken
A life snuffed out
For a moment’s thrill
At least we can take solace
In your punishment
You will never be able
To kill again

Defendant: What I wanted
Was to feel something
Your pain and disgust
Come so naturally to you
I hide my true self to survive
I just wanted to feel something
Anything at all