Hard Times

I sat there while you plead your case
for confidence and secrets to be erased
I was riddled by your words
I bet that you could hardly wait to send the cavalry
for me, your subtly replaced

With spoils
(My father told me)
Of your work
(Don't forget who you are, when you're one step from death
you'll still have your north star)
The things I
(My strength deceived me, I thought I'd own the world )
I know my worth isn't
But this fool I've become can't see straight to forget her)

The loneliness of loving someone can steal your eyes
and spill the hope you had and you're left to spin the why's
by yourself and no one else, no one else
The trust you handed over, the people that you hurt
But you could never stop yourself, an addict for the worst
What you felt, were lies they'd sell and nothing else

So I sit here making my big plans
Like they could rescue me but now I see
The answer through my window
That nothing can replace
Those memories my father gave me
Are all that's left but I'm ready
To escape this life

The loneliness of loving someone can steal your eyes
and spill the hope you had and you're left to spin the why's
by yourself and no one else, no one else
The trust you handed over, the people that you hurt
But you could never stop yourself, an addict for the worst
What you felt, were lies they'd sell and nothing else

I'm sorry for the words I couldn't say
I'm sorry that your efforts were in vain
You were promised so much more than I have gave
I'm not a honest man I was born for the grave
This city stole the faith you had in me
This mistress stole the life I hadn't seen
But this face is the last thing they'll see
I want to feel the sun and sky on my face as I die!

The loneliness of loving someone can steal your eyes
and spill the hope you had and you're left to spin the why's
by yourself and no one else, no one else
The trust you handed over, the people that you hurt
But you could never stop yourself, an addict for the worst
What you felt, were lies they'd sell and nothing else