The Irony of Ministry
I feel undone
I feel like the string has been pulled to the end of its run
Yet still there's more
In this broken world
Oh and I don't
I don't want to think about it
Cause I know
How easy it is to drown in it
So I ignore
What my heart is crying for
Cause I'd rather push down
Than let things out
It's a fault of mine that I'm sure you're aware of now
Cause I don't know how to just speak with you
And I've never really learned how to just be with you
So I ignore
What my heart is crying for
On paper I had everything
The beautiful and shiny things
And people knew my name
But did they really know me?
I'd push away the deeper things
Surface level was my everything
Do I even know the real me?
Check the boxes off the task list
Keep myself busy so I don't notice
All the brokenness inside of me
The life vest given to me
Has puncture holes and now I'm sinking
Do I even know how to swim?