​in the great ruins of oxycotin

[Chorus]
I wish I wasn't like this often
I dont wanna live for oxycontin
I been tryna stop it I jus been so lost in
Lost most my friends to all these toxins
Stuck in exhaustion fantasizing 'bout the coffin
My heart been froze, so can't soften
I sold drugs for years, I can't work the office
I get high cause this world make me nauseous

[Bridge]
I dont wanna just be an addict
Everyday just tryna numb sadness
I dont wanna just be an addict
Everyday I numb sadness

[Verse]
Fried numb droolin' broken brain chemistry
I did all 'em drugs young wasn't the best for me
Fried neurons something wrong with me chemically
All 'em oxy 80’s downed with Hennessy
All these synthetic dopes gon' be the end of me
Never cared they thought less of me
Killin me softly, just wanna rest in peace
These drugs all that gon' miss me when I leave
Worrying if my girl hate me now
I been fuking up these drugs they keep me down
Might have get back to movin pounds
Is easy can't ever forget how
Gettin up just to get high
Wondering how I even get by
Wondering why I'm still alive
When everyone had to go and die
Off the same shit, no
I dont wanna face it
What it laced wit
Jus numb and erase it
Jus numb on fent laying
All the bad memories replayin
In my brain I hate it

[Chorus]
I wish I wasn't like this often
I dont wanna live for oxycontin
I been tryna stop it I jus been so lost in
Lost most my friends to all these toxins
Stuck in exhaustion fantasizing 'bout the coffin
My heart been froze, so can't soften
I sold drugs for years, I can't work the office
I get high cause this world make me nauseous
Lost in, lost in, lost in, oxycontin
Ain't got no way to stop it
Ain't got no way to stop it