Centerpiece

[Verse One]
Clutching hair as I’m sifting through my memories
I’m hearing laughs of former friends now enemies
The time lapse, make me wanna go back but I can’t as of lately I’m pretending what I used to be
I would change back if I could
The signs sayin' they don't think that I should
Cause what I know now, I ain’t know then
And I need my current knowledge so I’m not just left in
Old “ignorance is bliss” not knowin' shit, false happiness, sit dumber than a bag of bricks, can’t over think, that’s what I miss, I fall, I’m back up quick
Now I feel a hammer in head when I screw up again, I hit me a spliff and pop a xan so I ain't feelin' shit, ain’t got no friends, can’t see my girl as much, and I now go through this awkward phase of stiffness, I turn numb and I start acting different, I ain’t cried in months too hurt inside I’m showing pride that’s missin'

[Verse Two]
How’d it all turn to this though?
How’d I get myself involved in all that I’m in, bro?
Back I was faking what I wrote, they viewed me as a joke, I killed off “Dr. Bullet” used my middle name, and let it go
Now they say I’m edgy, I’m too emo, "you need help", I know
You got mom and dad, these kids is fatherless, you have some hope
You don’t know my struggle, nor my pain, this shit goes past the home
Wildin' off the drugs, the sober me is silent when I roam
Anxiety, Depression, Obsessions was what I grew to know
Maybe it’s a phase, will it change?
I don't fucking know!