Kick the Tragedy

I think it was the first time I realized that I could change the world
Or at least change the way me and my sister hit the clock on every tick just to see what happened
The time has really flown by, I guess, and it's hard to think of the way it might've been
Or remember really specifically the words and all the rest of it
I was down, more than I'll ever be, probably
That is what we do with it all together
Like the orange trees in the backyard, and it's Easter, and it just won't end
Fucking Phil, he's off on his board somewhere
And I'm just sitting here getting more and more lost with everything
That is the thing about it, it's not as if a cousin promised something and had taken it away
It was like nobody could share my so-called dreams, which really meant none of it was happening
And that reach around midnight left her with just about that, nothing

There's not anything particular about it either, and I think that the whole thing gets vaguer every second
But I am too and there's nothing wrong with that
It's even funny when you stop to realize I'm just nineteen
And how serious can anything be anyway?
Not very