To Whoever

Am I dreaming?
(Wake up!)

To whoever finds this message

I remember the life I had in Guam
The beach, the way the water felt
The warm sunlight on my skin

Shit, life was pretty good
I really miss those days
But then again, I hated school
I hated how people shouted at

Me for looking different
Calling me names
Just because of my skin color you know?
But I didn't really care

As long as my mom and dad were smiling
I thought nothing could go wrong

What could go wrong?
Nothing, nothing
What could nothing

2007, February 4th
I was packing my things
And I was leaving for Korea
I didn't know why at the time
All I knew was I had to say goodbye
To the place I called home
And say hello to

Mister sun shine
I ain't got no time yeah
Mister fast car
I don't want no ride no

Mister city lights
I don't want no fight
I don't want to hide
I don't want to lie

And I want to know why?
Why I had to feel incomplete
Every second of my week

Like why I had to have 3 jobs
Just to stay on my feet

Why I had to enlist in the army
Before I could even speak

Or why my dad had to be diagnosed
With something he couldn't beat cancer

Honestly, it felt like death
But he was facing death
So I was confused
I remember asking myself
Where do we go when we die?

Hell? Heaven?
Do we enter a void?
Space? Reincarnation?

Where do we go?
Where do we go?
Where do we go?
Too many questions with no answers
Where do we go?
God I don't know!

Where do I go?

Now fast forward 5 years

Coming to you live

Lite cool

I guess a lot has happened since then
But here I am asking myself the same questions