People Have Poisoned My Mind To A Point Where I Can No Longer Function

I can hardly breathe cause I can hardly be myself
People staring at me, but they all look for someone else
I’ve been lashing out like a monkey in a cage
You might see a fucking stage, but this a sold out grave
And I know it’s easier to listen when you don’t want to hear
Chose a thousand fucking funerals over white walls for years
So if suffering is key, then show me the lock
‘cause thirty years of pain
And this is all I got

Black is my soul, yellow my drip
Blue is my collar and I won’t forget
How I looked at my hands, shaking and red
And thought “peoplе are poison, so I don’t need help”
Said I’d fucking do it - done - did it mysеlf
Buried my soul at the bottom of a well
So toss a fucking coin and be a patron to my hell
Forty fucking five, fuck the hand I was dealt

If I’m at my worst, it can only get better
If I keep you close, then I’ll always remember
That it comes in waves, like it came today
Might have made my peace but I’m still feeding off the [hate]

I’m chasing new lows, ‘cause it keeps me fit
I’ll ask with my mouth or I’ll take with my fist
Saw myself in a dream doing awful shit
I just want to sleep but now I’m married to regrets
This ain’t permanence - this is punishment
Lost my innocence, fuck an accomplishment
In life and in death : triple fucking beam
I’m worried about my soul, give a fuck about a scene

I’m gone