Rocking Chair Song

Well I thought it was nothing
But somehow that nothing wasn’t it
And I want you to listen
But I’m just a dime-a-dozen angry white man
So who really gives a shit

Instilled as a child
That something must be special in my head
I imagined it like a museum but it was not
It was something else instead
Just something else instead

With untenable pockets
I panicked in work debt slavery
I can wear an idiot smile like
The ones in romantic comedies

And I don’t wanna have to kill them
I don’t wanna have to kill them
But I will
No I don’t wanna have to kill them
I don’t wanna have to kill them
But I will

So I realized a vision where
I played the piano on a stage
And the president smirked at my precious idealism
Just a monkey in a different kind of cage

And I appreciate my genetics
I know my bone structure isn’t bad
But I’m as paranoid as my mother
And just as narcissistic as my dad

And I don’t wanna have to kill you
I don’t wanna have to kill you
But I will
No I don’t wanna have to kill you
I don’t wanna have to kill you
But I will

I had a dream where
I carried this rage inside my hands
Inside a house I’d never been to, there stood a stranger
A mostly unmemorable man

And without any warning
I picked up a wooden rocking chair
I slammed it into his body, over and over and over
Until all of his skin began to tear

But I had no intention of stopping
I continued until everything was red
And my brain censored the violence, as he slowly flattened
Til I could no longer see his head

And that’s when I heard all the sirens
Blaring outside in the street
So I ran into the kitchen and grabbed the nearest blade
And I began to slice it through my own meat

Deeper and deeper and deeper, over and over and over
I dragged it into intersecting lines
Up and down both my arms as I tried to escape them
But my body just wouldn’t let me die
My body wouldn’t let me die
My body wouldn’t let me die
My body wouldn’t let me die
My body wouldn’t let me die
My body wouldn’t let me die
My body wouldn’t let me die
My body wouldn’t let me die
My body wouldn’t let me die

They said honey save me from yourself
Save me from yourself honey
Honey save me from yourself
Save me from yourself
They said honey save me from yourself
Save me from yourself honey
Honey save me from yourself
Save me from yourself honey