Nightmare

I kissed someone again
You will never find out
I don't wanna cause any pain
But i know how this will turn out
And i haven't replied to your texts
And i know that you're feeling alone
I don't even want any sex
I just wanna sit at home
For a moment, just for a moment
The lights go out and i'm free from all
The skeletons inside of my closet
But when they go back on and
I'm in the mirror at 3am
I'm finally honest
I'm a nightmare
I'm bad and i don't care
I'm gone the next morning
Too quick like a jumpscare
Left all of my friends aired
Psyche is impaired
Broken heart won't heal
So for now i'm a nightmare
And when i'll end it you'll cry
You won't even know why
I kissed you yesterday, today you're alone
Don't try to call me baby i won't pick up the phone
It's not my fault i'm like this
I've been through some shit
I've grown tough and i can hide my emotions
I'm numb, heart has been through too much erosion
For a moment, just for a moment
The lights go out and i'm free from all
The skeletons inside of my closet
But when they go back on and
I'm in the mirror at 3am
I'm finally honest
I'm a nightmare
I'm bad and i don't care
I'm gone the next morning
Too quick like a jumpscare
Left all of my friends aired
Psyche is impaired
Broken heart won't heal
So for now i'm a nightmare
Oooo, i'm a nightmare
Oooo, i'm a nightmare
Oooo, i'm a nightmare
Oooo, i'm a nightmare
I'm sorry, i don't wanna cause any pain
Two doves in the wind, rings and engagements
White picket fences feel like a jail
I don't wanna trap myself in this arrangement
I don't need you, i need the world
I need to make art, die rich when i'm old
Don't want skeletons inside of my closet
But i know there'll be more that will join them
Good person, bad actions
Don't want interactions
An introvert with trauma
Who won't take blame for his actions
I'm a
I'm a nightmare
I'm bad and i don't care
I'm gone the next morning
Too quick like a jumpscare
Left all of my friends aired
Psyche is impaired
Broken heart won't heal
So for now i'm a nightmare
Oooo, i'm a nightmare
Oooo, i'm a nightmare
Oooo, i'm a nightmare
Oooo, i'm a nightmare