What My Heart Looks Likes

And if my head is aching
Whats the direct correlation
If my eyes can't open because they were for too long
I've lived unloved for 20 years and I can live another 20
I hope it doesn’t round out to be as long as I have
This is what my heart looks like

A pile of all the pills that I forgot to take
An acre of settlements with nothing on them as usual
A pair of cheekbones that end up starting another war
A bundle of normal sounding words that someones used before
This is what my heart looks like

The last place I saw every friend I ever had
The last time you fucked me over
And said I was the latest fad
A trail of all the little items
Belongings I keep losing
Never matters if I aged with you
My pockets were the never the best to get into
This is what my heart looks like