Tangent

I wish I could be loved for longer than a week
I wish I knew how to love you in the ways in which you seek
I wish you all could better understand the words I speak
And know that sometimes all I need is to be kissed and be made weak

I could listen to you talk
For three entire days
I'm sorry I don't talk to much
Don't like it anyway

Tried to take a proper vow of silence
Annually since '98
I was only three years old and

I already didn't have much to say
If I recall I spoke entirely
In lines from movies
I'd even do the voices
To the best of my ability

Extremely bright with some odd behavior
And no prodigal savior
I'm in hell sometime later

I never could quite understand why
They strapped me to that chair
Or why I went to high up places
Always losing myself in the air

The lab coat men that talked to me
One way window knocking
Several different strands of colored wax string

I listened to them talk
For many countless weeks
I listened to her tell me I was normal

I don't even know what this has to do
With why I couldn't love you
I felt like it related
But it might be nothing

I struggle thinking of much to say
And if I recall I still speak from time to time
In lines from movies
And even do the voices
The words I want to say are there

Extremely bright
With some odd behavior
And no prodigal savior
I'm in hell sometime later