Pity Party

I hate the mall
I hate the public
I hate the sun
My eyes are burning
I hate my friends
I don’t deserve them
I hate their love
No, I’m not worthy
I hate their love
I’m suffocating
Build my own casket
Cover the casing
I love my mom
But she’s too perfect
I hate the fact
I’m always hurting
I wanna hide
I am a burden
I wanna hide
I am a burden
I hated school
I kept on flunking
Maybe I’m stupid
Maybe I’m learning
I tried I tried
I can’t be what you want me to be
I tried I tried
I can’t be what you want me to be
I like the hospital
They understand me there
They cuffed my hands tight
Police car took me there
I made some new friends
I heard some stories
I know I’m not a failure
At least I’m growing
Where am I going
I’m on my own path
Atleast I’m growing
I’ll be my own man
Soon
All this guilt Inside my brain
It’s gonna kill me
Trynna feel alright
My pain, it wont leave me
I’ve been blessed and cursed
At birth with my feelings
All the shit I hate
The shit is the real me
Got my little brother here
He’s just like me
You can try again with him
Please don’t hate me no no
I tried I tried
I can’t be what you want me to be
I tried I tried
I can’t be what you want me to be
I tried I tried
I can’t be what you want me to be
I tried I tried
(You have to make the right choice)