Helpless

It's been a long time
More like my whole life
Since I've felt the way that I feel tonight
My head is bursting from rehearsing
The lines to hide how I feel tonight
You're so pretty and I'm so shitty
For making you feel alone tonight

I'm alone tonight

I could fake this pain
Keep my thoughts at bay
I could whisper all my fears
Or keep it down while you're around
If I fake this pain

Can I trust you or are we strangers?
Both terrified of the same routine
Should I slow down? Should I go now?
Tell me everything you're afraid to speak

I'm afraid to speak

All I ever do is lie awake and smoke inside this room
Sink into this tomb when I feel helpless