Painful Mind Contradiction

Feel how it taste
The scraps of the thorns developes the blood
That is flowing without a prevent
Down, all the way down until it's reaching the ground
Feel the taste of the pain who is laughing you
In the face exactly like you have done
In a now looking far away time
Feel how it draws you to the ground how it passage your
Whole situation, the thought feel unreal but yet close
What drives you - holding you up?
What comes to you, the situation is inevitable
You falling in the so often safe surrounding
You are thrown around in the darkness where no one seems to care
Who am i? The question is an echoe that going round
You don't know, is there a me?
The nightmare becomes reality everything is dark
You take a shape of a ghost you don't know
Hiding behind the mask that is choking you
The blood starts to flow the thorns are reminding
You stapple around and fall in the shadows
Where you are alone and empty
Can no one see? Can no one see?
I fall down in the deep tunnel
There nothing is like me
Can no one see? Can no one see?
Feel how it draws you to the ground
How it passage your week self esteem
Can no one see, I'm obscurity
Can no one see, the retribution thru me?
The thought is unreal but yet close, my only way
Drink the wine, face the blood, qouncer myself
Lost in my thought
Lost in my body
Feeling the thorns, reminding the pain
I feel how it draws me to the ground
How it passage my whole situation
The thought feel unreal but yet close
What drives me holding me up?
Once more the shadows of night have darkened my existence
But somewhere in my in blackened unpleased mind
I have a small beginning of a remembrance
Like an unreadable note from a long
Time ago that still is valid
When the shape is forming I know there will be something more
I know, at the mirror of my soul
Many times I'm convinced
All concepts have lost their meaning
When the situation is inevitable
And I'm falling down in the so often safe surrounding
When the question is an echo that going round
And I don't knows there a me
I have my remembrance reminding me that I know
Yes I know there will be something more a new morning
The everlasting the fullfilled