Gun to My Head

If somebody puts a gun to my head
I won't admit to this again
I won't admit to this again
But the truth is I get why you did what you did
I was hell to live with
I was a miserable prick
And I still am

So I won't try to stop you
Or ask you for more time
Because I'm not gonna improve
And honestly, I'm not even trying

So I'll just tell you that I hate you
Because we're better off that way
And it's easier to say
Than admitting I don't blame you
And begging you to stay
When I know things will never change

Because I can't
Be bothered to get better
I don't know how to stop
And I know I should never say never
But I don't like my odds

And I know I didn't turn out to be
Who we thought I'd be
Well I'm disappointed too
But I don't expect you to put up with me
So don't expect me to put up a fight for you

Because I get why you said what you said
Why you did what you did
Why it fucked up your head

And I get why you packed up and left
Why you're disillusioned
Why you couldn't handle it

And I get why you wish you could forget
Why you wish we never met
Why you wish I was dead

But if somebody puts a gun to my head
I won't admit to this again
I won't admit to this again

I won't say shit