Apartment

When I listen to my heart I hear nothing
But the cold scrape of steel on steel
And the slow crawl of bad blood pumping
To phantom limbs I could swear I still feel

'Cause I followed my dreams into darkness
And woke up feeling like I'd been drugged
And I reached down deep for the strength to go on
And then realized I had been mugged

So now I'm resigned to regret and resentment
Repressed and predestined to fuck up again

But I don't wanna die alone in an apartment
Undiscovered 'til they come looking for my rent
Call the cops, change the locks and sell all my shit
Repaint the walls and roll me up with the carpet

And I once was the life of the party
Now I just wanna be left alone
'Cause there's nothing on Earth that sickens me worse
Than the sound of a ringing phone

And I trusted my gut and got gutted
And left in a gutter to die
When I looked up to God for the strength to get up
I got nothing but empty sky

Now I got no capacity for empathy
My heart bleeds for no one but me

But I don't wanna die alone in an apartment
Undiscovered 'til they come looking for my rent
Call the cops, change the locks and sell all my shit
Repaint the walls and roll me up with the carpet

And if I never said everything I wish I'd never said
You wouldn't even recognize my voice
But I fully intend to never hurt you again
Pretend I even have a choice
You gotta understand
I will never be a man
But I'm doing almost the best I can
When I feel up to it

'Cause I don't wanna die alone in an apartment
Undiscovered 'til they come looking for my rent
Call the cops, change the locks and sell all my shit
Repaint the walls and roll me up with the carpet

I don't wanna die alone in an apartment
Undiscovered 'til they come looking for my rent
Call the cops, change the locks and sell all my shit
Repaint the walls and roll me up with the carpet
Repaint the walls and roll me up with the carpet
Repaint the walls and roll me up with the carpet
Repaint the walls and roll me up with the carpet