Lost and Found

Lost my heart inside a bottle
Been tryna' figure out how many shots go to the bottom
cnd that's just one of many problems
Been dancin' with devil in a rose field that won't blossom
I lost my mind inside the city
Lost my confidence where it's gritty
How do I get the courage to tell you, I think you're pretty?
Too damn stubborn to ask for help
Just don't know how to measure my wealth
How am I supposed to fall in love if I don't love myself?

What? You want me to up and lie?
I'd be lyin' if I told you, I didn't cry
I've been through the pitch black darkest days
I lost my way.

I lost my friends throughout the years
Been tryna' find the light I lost to navigate these fears
cnd all these tears I'm drownin' in
Been tryna find the life jacket I lost cuz I can't swim
I lost my smile and now I'm depressed, hate this feeling I need a reset
Now I made my bed in “oh no's”, “what if's”, and regrets
Too damn stubborn to go get help
Just don't know how to measure my wealth
How am I supposed to fall in love if I don't love myself?

What? You want me to up and lie?
I'd be lyin' if I told you, I didn't cry
I've been through the pitch black darkest days
I lost my way.

My dad just called me to check in
He wanna make sure that I'm doin fine
Must be May 14th again
Cuz that's the day that Jackie died (see)
Losing a mom is like a bomb blowin up in your chest, you know, that sudden blast
She was there for my very first breath, and I was there for her last. When will it pass?
It happened so fast, it's like a time loop of
Reliving the past, I wanna find you and
Hug you just once more, and this the reason my hearts sore (then it's)
c pain in my side, web full of lies (I'm not)
cnswering calls, I'm cuttin' ties (I'm just)
Diggin' myself so deep into this hole, it's so dark I can't open my eyes
I realize, divorce ain't - so pitiful
Could be the beginning of - something beautiful
So I stop hating life, stop hating you
cnd start loving myself, that's where it's critical
Thank God for clarity, thank God for therapy
cnd that I'ma shout out loud
It's been a hard couple years mama
But I hope that I made you - proud

I found my way