You Have Me (I Kill)

Dark Winter, Dark Winter, Dark Winter, Dark Winter
You will always have me right by your side
Even though, you can never see me in my eyes
You will still fear me and dread me, no lie
I am the one that will cause you to die
This madness inside of our world is still killing minds
Kids put a bullet right through the eyes
Pop some pills hit the tub
I am the pain and desperation when you need a hug
I am that nagging feeling that's always deep down inside
It's always telling you
"You better go run away, hide"
I am the victim of the crime
Need no alibi
For this murder that is in the first person degree
Dead on arrival you see
I am the thoughts that you need
You will never be set free
You will always have me
Parasite right in the brain
These thoughts that you will never tame
Swirlin' round you like a storm
Takin your soul to the drain
Why do I have all this pain?
Cause I haven't seen her smile
Yeah You know that it's been a while
Seein' her face in my mind
All this social distance makes you just want to leave life behind
All these masks around
Makes you think your face is a mistake
So what's stoppin' you to take
Listen to me, stay awake
There is so much more to live for
Think after the lock down
Who should you be there for
Think about that girl's eyes
As they stare straight into yours
Loving you for your whole life
Now that purpose will be yours
Love yourself and stay alive
You won't ever need to cry
Yeah, this is real life
Teens are close to suicide
But the government got power in mind
Door to door with the pesticides
Drop a stack to make you bow
They'll never care, anyhow
Or anyway that you will paint it
They will profit while you painin'
Curled up in a ball with anguish
Cause you can't leave your own home
Livin' life right through a screen
As the days are passing by
It just makes you wanna scream
Losing years like you lose patience
See it's all a lie
It's just a flu
The symptoms what they want to do to you
The cure is simple really
You have me
And now you should do you
You will always have me right by your side (You have me)
Even though, you can never see me in my eyes (And now you should do you)
You will still fear me and dread me, no lie
I am the one that will cause you to die
It was barely a month ago
That Dylan Buckner took his own life
It was a very silent, very invisible killer
You know 450,000 people and counting in the U.S. have— have died of covid
I'm fortunate in that I don't know any— any of those people
But I do know one person who committed suicide
There really is no doubt in my mind that the lockdowns, the isolation
Absolutely contributed to his death