Private Guiding Star

I've got my own private mind that I can lose if I want to
I can expand, or divide, or multiply it by two
My personal shit can occur if I do
That’s my own responsibility, and it’s personal too
I've got my personal name, personal aim
Personal struggles, and private domain
I’ve got my personal boundaries as I live in my skin
And a whole lotta personal deep within

One day, I’ll patch up all of my scars
I’ll reign in my demons, and make them my bodyguards
One day, I’ll dial in my desires
No more obsession, just what my life requires
One day… Oh, no! It sounds like I have to wait
Today! Let it be today right outta the gate
Today I’ll be happy, today I’ll bе free
I’ll just be my authentic self, thе best I can be

I’m not going to wait for you
Though I felt in the past that that’s what I should do
I have a life to live, and you have one too
There is no pause button so it better be true

I have to go far
To where my heavens are
Into Gehenna
Through the pain to the light
There’s no day with no night

My guiding star
Goddess of love and war
Shines through the chaos
Healing darkness and strife
Bringing balance and life

I've got my own unique shape and my own unique form
Carved by my own bitter downfalls that I’m rising from
I own my heart and every single vein
I bleed red blood and try to be humane
I’m body and mind, a sovereign human being
My soul is on its way to where I’ve never been
My roads are few but each of them is mine
They’ll fade into oblivion if I run out of time

One day, I’ll patch up all of my scars
I’ll conquer my demons, and make them serve me as guards
One day, I’ll dial in my desires
No more obsession, just what my life requires
One day… Oh, no! It sounds like I have to wait
Today! Let it be today right outta the gate
Today I’ll be happy, today I’ll be free
I’ll just be my authentic self, the best I can be

I’m not going to wait for you
Though I felt in the past that that’s what I should do
I have a life to live, and you have one too
There is no pause button so it better be true

I have to go far
To where my heavens are
Into Gehenna
Through the pain to the light
There’s no day with no night

My guiding star
Goddess of love and war
Shines through the chaos
Healing darkness and strife
Bringing balance and life

I have a life I gotta live
(Just like you have one, just like you have one, just like you have one, too)
I have intent and motivation
(Hopefully, you have it, hopefully you have it, but that’s up to you)
I have a life I gotta live
(Just like you have one, just like you have one, just like you have one, too)
I have intent and motivation
(Hopefully, you have it, hopefully you have it, but that’s all up to you)

I won't follow someone's ways
I don't want someone's fate
I don't need someone's life
And I won't let someone steal mine

I’m not going to wait for you
Though I felt obliged to do what I had to do
I have a life of my own, and you have one too
There is no pause button so it better be true

I have to go far
(I don’t wanna walk your way)
To where my heavens are
(I don’t wanna live someone’s life
I gotta live my own)
Into Gehenna
Through the pain to the light
There’s no day with no night

My guiding star
(I can’t follow someone’s ways)
Goddess of love and war
(There is no cookie-cutter path for everyone)
Shines through the chaos
Healing darkness and strife
Bringing balance and life

No time for fear
Tomorrow’s strength is borne by sorrows of today
The now and here
Demands of me that I be on my way

No time for fear
Tomorrow’s strength is borne by sorrows of today
The now and here
Demands of me that I be on my way