Torn

Since I left I needed medicine
Just can't shake it off
Waking up I'm on the fence again
Don't know what I lost
So I'm not in any photographs
Took that like a punch
Talking to myself right off the ledge
Guess that's what I want

Could say I messed up
Could say I dodged a bullet
A different lifestyle, I don't know what to call it
I don't know what to call it

I hate it when I'm here
I love it when I'm leaving
I miss you when you're gone
I'm floating in between
Will I ever put my feet on the ground?
Just be happy with the way it is now?
I hate it when I'm here
I love it when I'm leaving
The more I feel alone
The more I miss the deep end
Will I ever drop my bags on the ground?
Just be happy with the way it is now? (Now)

Fighting through my tongue like fingernails
I know I should stop
Sorry that I had to bail again
That's not what I want
On a plane these thoughts are turning
Always on then off
Somewhere in between I'm torn again
No one knows I'm gone

Could say I messed up
Could say I dodged a bullet
A different lifestyle, I don't know what to call it
I don't know what to call it

I hate it when I'm here
I love it when I'm leaving
I miss you when you're gone
I'm floating in between
Will I ever put my feet on the ground?
Just be happy with the way it is now?
I hate it when I'm here
I love it when I'm leaving
The more I feel alone
The more I miss the deep end
Will I ever drop my bags on the ground?
Just be happy with the way it is now? (Way it is now)

(Way it is now) mm, mm, mm, mm
(Way it is) mm, mm, mm, mm
(Way it is) mm, mm, mm, mm
(Way it is) mm, mm, mm, mm
(Way it is) mm, mm, mm, mm
(Way it is) mm, mm, mm, mm