HIS DEFINING MOMENT.

[Verse 1]
I taught myself much better than to ever place any faith in a Reverend
Grew arms just long enough to smack Satan from Heaven
I'm searching for the end of heartache, no Roderick Strong
Hiding my thoughts like I was taught, sip till I'm out of it, dawg
Where pride goes, shame follows
Throttled by the pain of how you evolve to alcohol from Similac in baby bottles
Lately, I don't feel the same
No lie, I barely feel a thing but numbness
I've got so much to overcome, this is insane
Caught in a web of lies
Spewing venom in every direction, I'm stuck at a crossroads
Lost, lowest point thus far is when my brain's disagreeing with the heart though
Overwhelmed by the pressure placed upon me
Digging for some self-esteem like a fossil
I took some L's I won't mention, just know they haunt me
This chick is eyeing me as my mind taunts me
Why would I give myself to her when I don't even want me?
So I remain seated at this rooftop bar
I look over the ledge, just to spot two cop cars
A cop enters, and forces his way between a group of women
Grabs the chick that was eyeing me as she was taking pictures
They argue while her homegirls stand there giving their two cents
Figure I'd better dip now, consider the vibe ruined
They move towards the exit
The scene becomes hectic, but nobody intervenes due to the risk of being arrested
Me, I'm reckless
I've seen enough abuse and so I step in
That's when the cop takes a step back and draws his weapon

[Verse 2]
Heard only the strong survive, yet the good die young
Pbbtt, that's just another lie from real live scum
I'm the only child from a family with a real bad pattern
Can't say you love me all the time, yet weird words like daggers
So as I'm walking down the block, I see this woman from around the way
She'd probably turn heads if no one knew the dude she messed with
I met him only once, a speeding ticket's what I left with
But still I recognize her showing interest to her best friend
I play it cool and mind my own business
Was never really the type to run game on taken women
Yet now it's her approaching me, the tables turn
Deep rooted trauma trapped inside us both, I later learn
The first time I asked about it, she was hesitant
I respect her for not revealing all her skeletons
It turns out her man isn't who she thought he was
Now she's telling me everything she can't tell her friends
Broke the heart on the girl of his dreams
He'll never see her again cause pride made it harder to sleep
Peddling propaganda, bombarded with lies and deceit
Finding herself again, bout as hard as me dodging police
Confederate rhetoric, F your heritage
Sliding between sheets, camouflaged like a sheep
Hoods hide your identities while ours lie in the street
Only bouncing back we do is our bodies off concrete
Vessel left behind, watch how their souls rise in defeat
Pellets from Glocks hit us from cops wearing SWAT stickers
White supremacy morphs the more that the times switch up
Our necks stay glistening, but the jury don't rock with us
Mock our shortcomings, the higher ups plot with them
Gave her a Ruger for her protection, taught her how to safely use it
Almost joined the Army as a lost child that they recruited
But I know better
I just wish that venting to her helped me
They strung my dawg up like laundry, and since, I haven't felt peace

[Verse 3]
Fast forward, struggle ensues
I knock the gun out of his hand, he goes to swing but I move
Complete chaos, people scream, "Stop!"
But it's me or him, ain't no way out
His partner must've heard the commotion and couldn't stay out
It's two on one, until ol' girl pulls the Ruger
Now it's a standstill, no one is moving
I inch closer to her, that's when the partner draws his gun
Boom!
Officer down, odds even, our lives doomed
So I look at her, she looks at me
That's when I'm pushed over the ledge, guess it's back to the streets
Flashes above, whoa