Nothing To Me

I fell asleep in 2019
And haven’t woken up until now
I don’t really know just what that means
But so much went wrong while I was out

I’ve hurt people in ways I never thought I could
It’s pointless to pretend I’m the only misunderstood
What’s done is done, I’ve been as evil as I could be
But the way I turned you upside down will never be nothing to me

I’ve been so used, yet used people too
Sometimes abuse comes from the abused
And you won’t know until it’s too late
I didn’t know till it was too latе

And what I’ve done often clouds thе fact
That people I’ve known ripped life from my hands
The ones who planted and grew their seeds
Burnt down the garden they made of me

You called yourself my friend when you tore me apart
You had to know that what you did broke my heart
And I could write you songs, hoping that you would see
But I’d rather have you know you became nothing to me

Where do I begin speaking of you?
Tumultuous could not define
The storm we threw ourselves into
I’m not a saint, but you took my peace of mind

The amount of nights I spent alone
Crying over what I feared was wrong
The time you cut straight to my bones
And confirmed I was right all along

You’ve got to see, I know what you were doing now
I spent so long ignoring it and I don’t know how
You wanted me under spell, as far as I could be
Now I’ve broke out and you will always be nothing to me

Nothing to me

It’s hard to stay with the idea that I am more than this
Especially when I least expect it, the tidal wave of fear hits
But you help me kill the little things that I could not see
And you show me just how all of them should just be nothing to me

Nothing to me
Nothing to me at all