Look Away

I’m breathing
The eyes still burn holes in my back
It’s creeping
I believe in
The notion of a moral upholder
I’m weakened

I made a plan to leave my burdens behind me
It’s who I am: running, trying to call it “recovery”
Stuck in the sand even when I’m on the go now
My aching hands are led by something evil

I can’t look away from the things that I’ve never stopped to face
Look away, ‘cause the pain you have is the same I gave
So I guess that leaves me with a headfirst jump, I’ll be okay
I wish it was different, I wish I could change it but I can’t look away

I’m moving
Like a thunderstorm upon the hills
It’s brooding
Tried soothing
The pain but with the wrong pill
The truth is

I made a plan to leave my burdens behind me
It’s who I am: running, trying to call it “recovery”
Stuck in the sand even when I’m on the go now
My aching hands are led by something evil

I can’t look away from the things that I’ve never stopped to face
Look away, ‘cause the pain you have is the same I gave
So I guess that leaves me with a headfirst jump, I’ll be okay
I wish it was different, I wish I could change it but I can’t look away

It took you down
I hope you get back up
I know it means nothing
When it comes from me
And there’s no justice
There’s no savior
And I’m not what matters now
I’m just trying to learn to breathe out